It is only running that you can respond to yourself to give a caring space. The self has been neglected due to meritocracy and capitalism!! How sad that we have to try really hard to be aware of the importance of Self compassion. But, it will give you a feeling of cheerfulness after running until out of breath to hit Self-compassion level. "I deserve to take a break because I'm great"
In order to achieve your desire (expectation) it's not surprising you feel suffered, because of the gap between between where you are and where you want to be. HOWEVER, you ignore the pains you obviously feel and run harder not to lose. For what?? LINK TO DESIGN PROCESS